kl was fun. i always go there to get my mind off things n all. and guess what, it works. for the time being that is. holidays are always fun and good for the mind. for me, my frequent kl trips are the only time when i don't think of my bills, what i'm doing to my life, why doesn't he love me, who i'm gonna spend my life with, hehe, and it's the only time i do housework. lol. for merdeka eve, we went up to genting highlands-me,mas,ida,uzie- to catch the splendid view from up there and freeze to death haha. it was so damn cold n coooollllld. =)
and after kl, i reached sg at ard 10pm...i went home, change and went dbl o! hahahahaha. discovered that asan's ex, zie, was actually my friend's friend. she's VERY pretty. lol. and i know he still loves her........well, he should.


anyway, i sounded so happy for my last post. actually i was THAT happy. i realised i live my life too fairy-taley. i used to be a hard-core pessimistic n had lower self-esteem than i have now. now i think better of what's gonna happen tmr, abt why things happen and the way i look at myself. these changes were supposed to make myself/my life better. but i guess it doesn't really work for me. rejections and unexpected failures are the worst & most depressing things in life. they leave a heavy weight not only on my shoulders, but in my heart too. sometimes u just dun wanna live no more.well that is the truth of life. so live with it.


and NO, i didn't just go thru a rejection or an unexpected failure. i'm just feeling like shit at the moment. btw syahrel's gonna be released on the 14/11. good/bad news?it's ur pick.