i know someone's been hurt by what she has read in my blog.. no, not directly.. i would never hurt a girl who did no wrong to me without a bloody reason.. i never knew u'd read my blog, and thus u've now discovered the truth, the real lifestyle of a certain someone we both know.. even tho we don't know each other at all.

i know about u actually, i know that u exist in his life, and i know abt many others. i'm glad he tells me coz i would be hurt jez like u if he didn't. at first i hated u, jez like i hated the others when i jez got close to him. gradually, i could see what kind of person he was, even tho he didn't tell me, i found out thru instincts, or as people would call it women intuition.. u know that kinda feeling when u can just feel, that special someone is cheating or lying to u..

and i felt that months ago. i immediately forced myself to make our relationship a very platonic one.. i don't talk nice to him no more, i don't prioritise him no more, and i don't talk a lot about him to my girlfriends no more. i don't even blog so much about him now. now i feel more secure that we're really just friends, maybe special in some way, but i don't get so uptight and jealous easily like i used to.nevertheless, i still hold a special place fer him in my heart.

i would be happy for u, or any other girl, who would end up with him. well okay maybe not. but i'd jez have to accept it right? so i jez want u to know that i'm not someone u have to worry about, if it's him that u want.